Something Ineffable

         I try to be normal every day,

    but something always keeps me

           away from doing so.
         I try to control my tears,

     but something always makes

            my eyes wet.
  I tried to put full stop on my

         feelings,but

       something always comes and      convinces

          me to feel again.
     I tried to be proud but

   something pulls me down each

            day.
 Some say it is my fortune…………

           but is it so?
     Good dreams become

          precious stone.

  Nights are now like

         bright sunny days.

My eyes force me to sleep,

        but the mind urges

       me to wake up………
Why is it so hard to believe when anyone comforts me

      by saying that this bad phase

      too will pass and on the other side, I’d stand strong.
    I always try to touch a bright glimpse of light, but as soon as I go

       close, it disappears,

       every single time.
  Each night brings with it so many

         unanswered questions……..

   which make me wonder my

    purpose of living and

      question my existence
Years have passed, but still

I hope that one day I will find that

            SOMETHING

keeping peace away from my life….

        causing me distress…….

     shutting those windows of opportunity and bouncing those  

      rays of light away from me and

   filling it with darkness

        I am unable to dispel.